My name is Donna and I have a dog...

....ok, so, he isn't really my dog. He might-as-well-be, though! :) First of all, we have the same hair...the breeder said so. Yes, he has wavy dark hair, as well. And, he is a goof-ball,...apparently I am, too - according to the Creative Director at work. Difference is, I don't bite - but, I could. So, don't push me! ;)

To me: he is the cutest thing ever. And, it's a good thing 'cause I'd be tempted to throw him over a bridge and into a lake. Don't worry...not dog abuse...he is a water dag. He'd only swim back to shore and come back to annoy me!

He is a purebred Portuguese Water Dog. His Dad, Black Galaxy - is a champion. (Finn must get his DNA from his Mom ;) ),....and, his Mom is named Sea Breeze. Finn is definitely a combination of both.

He belongs to my friend, but I was in Finn's life right from the start...4.5 months. He is over a year now...just barely...& I love him very much!

So, today is raining, I took him for a walk and he becomes invigorated...he almost bucks like a Bronco...excited and geared up to go. I, on the other hand...look like a drowned rat! I, also...feel like a cat that was just thrown in water. But, like any good Mom...when we get home, I take him out back to play fetch with the ball. Not in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would be a "Mom" at 43. But, I love him...and I am happy to be able to share him. :)

I plan on sharing my stories of Finn right here. He is a doll, comedian, companion, and dawg! He makes me laugh on a daily basis ( I will at this time neglect to mention the moments when he pisses me off - like eating my flip-flop or barking in my face or the dirty pinches that leave a bruise.)

My name is Donna, and I have a dog named Finn, who really isn't my dog - I'll just pretend! "Finn...don't chew that stick!" Arf!

Just a Rant

I am sitting here on a Friday night....a little upset, and I know I shouldn't be. Never choose to be the victim. But, sometimes I get so frustrated and just want to be a normal person for once...

I, too, have feelings.

First of all....it takes a lot to throw me over the top...and, I'm clinging to the fence post or rock face with scratches from my fingernails right now! So many little issues - 'cause life isn't always roses and there are complications to hurdle - and, I seem to be running a Full-Fledge Marathon of Hurdles at the moment....

It's like I don't know how to jump track and take a breather...I feel like I am in a boxing ring taking one punch after another. And, reality is...I understand about affirmations and what-not...I must be dreaming this $h*t...'cause I truly believe I deserve better.

And, on that note...I take the time to reflect and show gratitude for the really good things in life: like the special friends I have - which I will not name,...you know who you are, my kids (regardless of the fact that they may be upset with me at any given time), a roof over my head, a job I love, and opportunities presenting themselves ( just waiting for them to bloom now.)

So,...movie producers out there...here is someone just waiting to act :), future lover...I'm ready, beautiful property ( I can move anytime),...and well...my friends have my #! You can always reach me...so...

Someone...please pull me off the track of hurdles...show me to the locker room so that I can shower and relax! :)

Another April Sunday...

Ahhh, spring is here...and, it finally feels like it. I love to hear the birds chirping in the morning [Morning doves & pigeons, on the other hand...can go to H3ll] Today is one of those Mixed-bag-of-tricks kind of days....ok morning turns into major rain and thunder, now blah with the signs of blue skies. Maybe the sun will come out just in time for Dinner/Supper [ironic & piss3r when it does that!] My sons are back home from, I'd say, one of the hardest moments of their lives. Their Grandpa passed away from pancreatic & lung cancer [thankfully no more suffering...it has been a long, yet not long enough, over 3 years.] I know that they need to live their lives...the youngest one soon enough...but, I love having them back. Things feel mostly normal. So, I sit in my sons room, on his laptop, looking out the window - when I am not typing - at the green grass and signs of a promising summer. I have my novel next to me - which I am reading when not typing - James Patterson: Swimsuit. In my odd way...it reminds me of summer. I even placed sunscreen - be still my beating heart says MJ - on my face. I was optimistic on having sunshine today. See, yesterday was beautiful and after work I sat on a deck...actually got red arms. :) Ahhhh, the colors of summer & sunshine! So,...I understand the April showers...they bring May flowers...in time for June jammin' & July tanning....ok, that makes no sense at all. I think I have Spring Fever. What is Spring Fever?! :P Is it May yet?

Concert Season is on the way...

Just recently, I went to the press release of Lucknow Music In The Fields....at Finlayson's Restaurant....delicious food, btw!!!
It was cool to talk to the Media Relations guy and throw some names out there...nice to be asked for my opinion! :)
It occurred to me...I have been oh so busy and Concert Season hasn't really hit yet. Oh boy...I am going to be in big trouble!!! There are so many cool concerts hitting the area. And, all the concerts I'll miss because they are so far away. [Mind You....I'm so used to working concerts, rather than watching.]
So, being curious - my nature - just wondering whom you would like to see in concert this summer?! Tell me!

Hockey

Due to obligations...could not stay at the Hockey game tonight. The Owen Sound Attack are in the playoffs...and OMG....I am excited! Yes, I am been dealing with other issues (over-work & loss of a man whom was like my own DAD)....but, to have the Attack in this position is quite exciting and gives a bit of relief to the sorrow I feel inside.

The Attack & Knights were 2 for 2...and this was Game 5 and the Attack creamed the Knights. I'm a happy girl! :) They won 6 - 0! Just hoping Game 6 can be our win, as well!!!! Go Attack, Go!

Tonight...the Leafs were playing the Senators and they happened to come on top beating them 4 -2. Hmmm...... Maybe I should have bought a lotto ticket?! lol

Has this ever happened to you?

I'm so scared that the way that I feel is written all over my face.
When you walk into the room, I wanna find a hiding place.
We used to laugh. We used to hug, the way that old friends do.
But now a smile and a touch of your hand just make me come unglued.
It's such a contradiction. Do I lie or tell the truth?
Is it fact or fiction...The way I feel for you?

It's so complicated. I'm so frustrated. I wanna hold you close. I wanna push you away. I wanna make you go. I wanna make you stay. Should I say it? Should I tell you how I feel? Oh, I want you to know, But then again, I don't! It's so complicated.

Just when I think I'm under control....I think I finally got a grip.
Another friend tells me that my name is always on your lips.
They say I'm more than just a friend. They say I must be blind.
Well I admit that I've seen you watch me from the corner of your eye...
Oh it's so confusing. I wish you'd just confess. But think of what I'd be losing if your answer wasn't yes.

I hate it 'cause I've waited so long for someone like you. Should I say it? Should I tell you how I feel? Oh I want you to know...But, then again, I don't! It's so complicated!

*This has to be one of my fav songs! One of many - chuckle! And, yes...some of this pertains or has pertained to me....or may in the future pertain to me... :) Thanks for making this song a hit, CDJ! <3

Do you believe???

I am just curious if you believe in affirmations???

I started on Country 93 but really made a huge "debut" on 560 CFOS and became Producer of The Messenger Files with Carole Matthews. Check her out http://www.carolematthewsintuitive.com cause I certainly learned a lot from her! I learned that where I was in life....I put myself there. Going on the beliefs of other people. Not believing in my self-worth, etc. Well, I know differently now and I know affirmations do work.

Example: I always wanted to Cruise...always loved the Caribbean, especially St. Thomas, USVI...Nassau, Bahamas, and Puerto Rico. Not too long after I put it out there....BAM...I got the email that I was going on the CFOS Cruise....to those destinations.

Most of my life, I wanted a Jeep....BAM...start working for Troy/Edwards...and vehicle of choice was.....my Jeep.

Love dogs and for a couple of years eyed a Portuguese Water Dog - and, although Finn is not really mine...he is my baby...I am "raising" him. I have the pleasure to be a part of his life.

Always loved music & working with indie artists: I am an Emerging Artist Coordinator and work Middays on Country 93...ok, part of that may be my Mom's affirmation. She said it often enough.

Love to act: found my college buddies who own and run The Cousin Company, an Indie Film Company http://www.thecousincompany.ca

And, when I was losing hope and feeling caged in and basically choking...I ran into someone who just made me realize I could have and deserve more. To let go of past insecurities instilled by others (and myself....will not play the victim). And, within such a short amount of time - this person means so much to me. I know, I am weird. I can't help it...I just feel what I feel. Nor do I want to stop it. It is who I am!

There are many other affirmations that have happened....and eventually I believe that perfect (perfect for me) partner will arrive. Yes, I do believe! Good things do come to good people! :)