Well,...I certainly do! Thought I would take a different approach to my regular Blogs - which have NOT been regular - And, I want to talk about something that has been bothering me...A LOT!!!!!
Pain. Sometimes you look at someone and they look fine. Yes, just like all those postings on facebook. You can't "see" the pain...so...you figure the person is A-OK. That isn't always the case. For those of you that really know me...you know I suffer. And, I try not to say too much about the pain...but, well, um...it damn well HURTS!
I'm assuming it is a combination of my dancing/gymnastic/tomboy-ish days along with old age. Just add a couple of DNA defects there, too.
I have mild scoliosis...a kyphoid spine...injuries from tree falls, and dancing and gymnastics. And, basically, it is all catching up! My Nana warned me...I can still hear her say it....almost 40 years ago! Oh...to top it all off: I have hyper joint flexibility mobility.
I have exercised all my life....maybe not as much in the past 3 years...I know...I need to get back into it! But, don't tell me it'll make the pain go away. It doesn't! I can remember pain ever since I was 9 years old...continual pain. You just learn to live with it. Except lately...it hits me at night. All night. Last night was bad! Up every hour...and the pain is a constant ache. I hate taking meds and lately I have been giving in...which makes me "expand" which puts more weight on my joints and causes more pain. See the cycle?! I have tried the "natural" and "holistic" ways...and they aren't working, either.
The one thing I have also learned is that when I am in a "bad" situation...I hurt. No,...I am not unhappy...I just hurt. My body tells me! Will I ever be pain-free...yeah, when I die....but, I'm not looking forward to that at the moment. I still have a LONG LIFE to live - just putting it out there to the Universe :) !!!
So, if I happen to snap at ya...which I NEVER mean to do...it could be how I am feeling inside! Just sayin'!
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I hear you so well Donna. I sympathize with you. Pain is NO FUN and yes it does make you a little "bitchy" sometime but like you say, it's not me normally. I , like you , don't like to take medication as it only camoflages it and it does not go away. I am not sure what the answer is to cope with an almost constant pain but for those who have had little or no pain throughout your life please understand what Donna is saying here . It's not fun nor will it ever be fun . It's down right a pain in the Azz so to speak . Will it ever stop ? who knows. Just know Donna that even though I am quite by nature , I pay attention to what people say and are going through so always know that I am thinking of you and wishing there was something I do offer to make your pain go away for good. Hugs FG
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