How could I miss this?!

Today is Wednesday, January 19th, 2011....
OMG.....I am sooooooooooooo excited...seriously!

I am one of the fortunate ones going to see Brad Paisley on January 28th in Hamilton...limo provided! BONUS! It is all a part of the Country 93 Route 93! I am one of the lucky announcers that get to join the Winner & his guests.

So, I have seen Brad in concert before courtesy of Cory...and OMG....this man is amazing! He is one of the most amazing guitar players ever! And, his concerts...OMG! Totally cool! So, getting to see Brad a second time...exciting. THEN....I found out that Jerrod Niemann is opening. OM Double G! I <3 Jerrod! Jerrod.....I luv ya! So,....I was extremely excited for this date to arrive!!!

Now, I have been waiting a while for this concert and it popped up again...and this time...[Faint]...I found out that Darius Rucker will be performing, as well. I have always wanted to see Darius...even when he was in Hootie & The Blowfish.

SCREAM..........----> 2011 January goes out with a BANG! Brad Paisley, Darius Rucker, Jerrod Niemann....I am so ready for a night out ---- Limo style!

Pssttt...I heard a rumour!

So....lately, I have been battling Sinusitis & Bronchitis. I think I can finally see light at the end of the tunnel. But, on top of these annoying disturbances in my life....I am worried about Roger (battling for his life/pancreatic & lung cancer), Donna who is going for her Liberation of MS at the end of this week, Eileen who just went through a battle with Breast Cancer and WON! YAY, Eileen.......and, a friend who is not living the ideal life right now (you know who you are my partner in crime), a son who truly needs a job, another who needs to get off the games for a bit, a Sister that I am always worried about & crave a closer relationship with! And....on January 11th...my Baby got sick. Vomit & diarrhea.....again....a bacteria. :( This is where the rumour lies....

I look tired! I am tired! I have had late nights and the bags are showing under my eyes! Yikes.... I commented to a co-worker [as we are walking down the hall] that I would slit my wrists if I got pregnant in my 40's...and, here I am, a Mommy again. ***[Insert ears perking up here]***

Pregnant??? Hmmm....

[Insert rolling of my eyes here...all the way down the Hall - Insert Co-Worker laughing]

OK,...so I gained a couple of lbs.... 2 lbs People! And, the bags under my eyes are from stress, worry, and middle of the night let-the-dog-out-to-pee bags! I am NOT pregnant...and the only baby that could ever, possibly be on the way would be another Pup. Wait a minute, did I say another pup?! Slit!

Um,...9-1-1!!!!

My phone call yesterday...

...I was in a panic to call my Father-in-law...[I refuse to use "ex" with Sandra & Roger]...you see, 3 years ago in Feb....I found out the news that would make us live in fear and devastation..."Roger has cancer. Pancreatic & Lung...." It was like I was hit in the stomach with an axe.

I met Sandra & Roger when I was 17...I started dating their son. And, at a time when I needed my Dad (whom could not be there for me at the time)...I had Roger. Roger became my Dad. And, he was very much a part of my life for 17 years. I have been separated for 9 years now, but have kept in constant contact with Sandra & Roger...after all, they were/are my family regardless! And, I had my 2 boys to consider,as well!

Kyle was my first child...and first Grandchild on both sides of the family...then, before any others came along...I had Ryan, my second child. So...Grampy Thibodeau is very special to them.

So, I got to talk to Roger yesterday and it was one of the hardest things for me to do. The realization that he has gone 3 years with these horrible cancers, that the treatments stopped in July, that he is under palliative care, that he is losing weight like crazy, that his voice no longer sounds strong like the man I gained strength from, and saying the words "I love you..." knowing it could be the last time... just about killed me. He told me to hug the boys and kiss them....tell them how much he loves them...and, to tell them the importance of keeping in touch. :) I cried...and I cried. My heart is sobbing....I miss him and he isn't even gone yet.

The one thing I am very thankful and grateful for...I am able to converse with him. He is still alive and functioning, and he knows exactly how I feel! I love you, Roger...thanks for filling in as a Dad when I needed one....and thanks for being a fantastic Grampy to the 2 most precious things in my life: Kyle & Ryan! Muah...I love you all the sky!